Ode to a Deep Love: Jim Morrison & Pamela Courson | zolyblog.info | KQRS-FM
Pamela Courson was the long-term companion of the American singer Jim Courson's relationship with Morrison was quite tumultuous and. the common law wife of the late singer, Jim Morrison. Pamela is here to make confessions about her life, her relationship with Jim, his I had read a quotes by ray manzarek that explained the relationship of Jim and Pam. I don't think he felt any guilt over triangulated relationships, making women compete Patricia Kennealy Morrison is called Jim Morrison's widow. Pamela Courson in her twenties about the time she knew Jim. . Stick with me as I provide you the telling quotes from Patricia's book, and try to figure this one.
She was beautiful, she looked like the Snow Queen and yet she did things like collect Lugers. She had a vicious sense of humor. She loved travel because she said you never had to think about it.
When you were traveling and you were a tourist, you got up and life happened to you. She was the most dangerous girl I ever met. After Jim died and we were both just out of our heads we would do things like go to Tijuana and get crazy. We'd check into sleazy hotels and go down to Rosarito Beach and drink everything in sight. One time this guy that was with us yelled some really bad things to La Policia and they came after us.
One guy was trying to take the keys to Pam's new VW away, so I hit him over the head with my shoe.
It didn't do Pam justice, that's for sure. Didn't capture the sweetness of her. We were the two obviously hippie girls in this class - I had long straight brown hair with bangs and she had long straight red hair with bangs. She was real cute, a darling little thing.
I think that's what Jim liked about her. Pam was one of those. The couple moved into one of three small apartments in a house on Rothdell Trail, perced on a hillside just adobe the Country Store. There was a feeling of community and creativity that flowed through the area. Pam testified, in writing: On Wednesday, June 26,Jim Morrison and Pamela Courson went to Los Angeles City Hall and took out what was rumored to be their second marriage license, though the first one, said to have been picked up in Mexico shortly after the couple first met, no one remembers ever actually seeing.
But any thoughts of a June wedding expired along with the marriage license, which was allowed to languish and die, unused. That year, Pam met Christopher Jones, an actor who had lots of similarities with Jim Morrison and had just starred in the youth-oriented film "Wild in the Strets" and they dated for a short time during June and July When The Doors went to tour Europe Pam came along, choosing mostly to stay in Londonwhile the band toured.
Jim and Pam seemed content enough together there. Ray was impressed by the domestic bliss the couple seemed to have fallen into at their furnished flat on London's Eton Square.
And I thought, This is going to work out! This could work out! By November the Doors embarked a tour in the States and Pam hadn't come home yet. Without telling anyone where he was going, Jim went to London to get Pam back.
When he located her, the couple reconciled on at least a provisional basis. Infollowing the recording of L. Woman, Jim decided to take some time off and moved to Paris with Pam, in March.
He had visited the city the previous summer and seemed content to write and explore the place. They took up residence in an apartment at 17 rue Beautreillis.
Once in Paris, Morrison gained a great deal of weight and shaved off his beard. He admired the city's architecture and would go for long walks through the city. Once there, Pam encouraged him to write poetry.
Paris was proving to be good for Jim, and in matter of weeks his physical appearance reflected that benefit. He and Pam were living without pressures, without schedules, traveling anywhere they liked, coming back only when it pleased them to do so. Later, remembering an excursion from Paris to Morocco, Pam said: I fell instantly in love with him. Then I realized it was Jim. I hadn't recognized him. He had got up early and shaved his beard, and he was so lean from losing so much weight, he seemed a new man.
It was so nice to fall in love again with the man I was already in love with. Pam used to call the Morrisons to let them know that she and Jim were looking forward to seeing them as soon as they got back to the States.
I became really vengeful with Jim. I had spent all this time waiting for him to want a life with me and not with all the other women and want to spend his time with me. I had another love too, Jean. Jean and I had a very sexual relationship. He was real royalty and exciting. He treated me well for a time, and because I wasn't allowed to go to Miami at all with Jim during his trial, I made myself sick, went into the hospital and Jim didn't rush home to me, instead he took his time getting back so I went with Jean out of the country.
Jean was very sweet to me and Jim and I had not been having a sexual relationship for a long time. When Jim would show-up, I knew I wasn't getting anything sexual.
Ode to a Deep Love: Jim Morrison & Pamela Courson
He had already given it all away. Jim was becoming a father figure to me and I was like his Mother taking care of him, it got kind of sad but Jean and I had a really strong sexual thing. Jean was great until he replaced me for his next conquest.
At that point, it was the end ofI felt I wasn't enough for anyone. I felt like nothing. I came back to Jim and his New York girlfriend showed up and told me about their affair. It didn't surprise me, and then it was her abortion she told me about, when I wanted nothing more than to marry Jim and have his child.
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Nothing anyone could say about Jim and other women surprised me. Jim came back and found us there at Diane's place and Jim and I went upstairs to talk and he didn't deny anything with the New York girl, but said that he needed to go downstairs and see her. I asked him to choose me that night.
My birthday was the next day and we didn't do many holidays together which always bothered me. I asked him to choose me over her and he said he would go down and talk to her and be right back and something about how I can't control him and I didn't own him. He never came back that night, I waited all night. I went downstairs to find Jim and the New York girl asleep on the floor, naked. Jim tried to get me to apologize to the New York girl for barging in.
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Can you believe it? I did everything for this man and I was suppose to apologize to her on my birthday. This was a big deal at the time because it just brought back how many times Jim choose other women over me, if I was sick, Jim wasn't around.
I could never find Jim half the time and when I did, I really didn't like what I saw. I wanted a home, a family, a man who came home at night. He was never going to give me a child, one time I told him I was pregnant in an attempt to get him closer to me but I really wasn't. He handed me cash to get an abortion, I was actually sort of hurt because he said he wasn't going to raise a kid.
I did some things I shouldn't have done to try to get his attention but I wanted to believe he cared. But I thought, since Jim seemed to be done with the Doors and done with L. It wasn't the same relationship we had when we were younger and first met. We did things together but Jim was on a mission in Paris that had nothing to do with me really. He wanted to get his films shown and spend time alone writing. It seemed like he was writing all the time and I couldn't go with him.
I knew more people there than he knew in Paris and yet, he was still going off on his own to drink, and I thought, meet women. His mail use to go to the Door's office in L. Letters from women back home that he had written to. I still wasn't free and clear of Jim and other women.
I started hoping Jean would take me back, even though Jim and I took this road trip to Granada and Madrid and other places, it was like he was in his own world, no talk of getting married or us moving to Paris permanently. We didn't have sex either. It had been so long but he was coughing all the time and not interested. He was sick and I kept making him go to doctors but we didn't have that same kind of relationship when we met.
He didn't make me feel beautiful. So I kept thinking maybe Jean would take me back and I spent time with Jean in June of while his girlfriend was somewhere else. I kept looking for Jean on the trip Jim and I took, because I was feeling not very secure with Jim once again.Pamela Courson
Then I found out, Jim was telling people he didn't want to go back to L. My heart dropped, he wasn't moving to Paris, this was like a get away and he was going home to all his girlfriends back in the U. In fact, I stayed on Jim's back to create a will a couple of years before claiming the other Doors were greedy and they would take his money if he died and I would be out in the street.
His will was my idea, I needed a piece of paper since I wasn't getting a marriage licensed signed. Jim gave me money, he let me buy things, but the one thing he didn't give me was love.
So this is the end of it all. I started learning Jim wasn't staying in Paris because he was telling people he wasn't. I questioned him and he said that he was staying but I knew he was lying to me.
He told too many people I knew there and in letters he was going back to the U. It was typical of Jim to not tell me his true plans. He also told me, he was getting out of Themis since I didn't want it anymore.
I really didn't care about Themis at that point but I thought, he must plan to go back to L. I thought this was strange but he kept saying his legal fees were so high. I thought there was more to it. There are photos people can see of us just 5 days before Jim died. We look like a happy, loving couple on a day trip in France. Jim had a lot of wine that day, so he was easy to be around. He wasn't saying much to me about the future, in fact, nothing at all. He was there and posing for pictures with me but he was detached and still not doing well.
So then, the night before he died, we had a major fight back at the apartment after we left the restaurant across the street. I was so angry with Jim and I started to rip-up some of his poetry that he had been writing without me around. He said some really cruel things to me, they were so bad and he had done it before but this time, I felt different.
- Pamela Courson
It wasn't like in L. He was calling me bad names and telling me, when our credit cards arrived, since we didn't have any in Paris at the time, I could take mine and some cash and he would take his and some cash and he was going off without me. He said he was done and he had somewhere else to go.
He started to go on about the heroin I kept in the apartment. I thought I tucked it away and he wouldn't know about all of it, but he knew.
I am not proud of it, but I got into it due to depression. I wanted to sleep and not think about anything when Jim wasn't around and I never knew when he'd be back. He was sick in Paris all the time, but he was leaving and once again, I was going to be left with a credit card and money, but without Jim. I mentioned the letters to other women I saw and he said he was in love with someone else and going to meet her.
I don't think he was, I think he was going off alone but he would often say things just to hurt me. It went through me like a knife. I will take down your answers, but please be sure, I am surrounded in the light of Christ and you will have to tell the truth, once and for all.
When you met Jim Morrison, he was not famous and it seems like the two of you were happy, what is the real story about the beginning of your relationship?
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He was always very kind and always paid attention to me, but all of the happiness was only in the very beginning. Jim was not at all allowing a serious relationship. He was a poet and believed in being carefree. Jim was very very intelligent and so I felt very important because I was with someone so worldly, it seemed. I believed in astrology and thought we were right for each other, destined to be together.
There was constant cheating on both sides with you and Jim and then there was substance abuse on both sides, are you going to say it was just the 60's or why did all this happen in this relationship?
I was no longer the center of atttention as I once was in the beginning, although it was a very short lived time period. Drugs were readily available, Jim became very unhappy and so was I with not being cared for and being ignored. What were you trying to get from Jim Morrison? He was famous and rich and I existed because of Jim. I was known because of Jim. Was this your first soul incarnation with Jim Morrison? Jim Morrison supposedly called you his "cosmic mate" and you were the women he always came back to, no matter what or who he was with.
He left his entire estate to you and dedicated his poetry book to you. He gave you everything and eventually left the states to go to Paris with you. Were you his true "cosmic mate" and you obviously had this man and his love, what do you say about all that? I did have to go and find Jim and follow him around at times and try to figure out what his next move would be. I had stay on his back to get the poetry book dedicated to me, because at first he was going to dedicate it to Michael McClure.
I told him he would look like a fag and that I deserved it, he owed it to me. It was my idea, I wish it had been his idea. I also had to stay on him about his will. Someone that young wasn't going to have a will, he never thought of it until I said the other Doors were greedy. I said some bad things about the Doors all the time to Jim in private.
The money from the Doors bought me all this stuff but I always thought they took Jim away from me. Jim disowned his parents entirely and in a way, I was his only family but became less and less important to him as time went on.
His sister and brother were kept in touch with secretly here and there but I was really the only stable one in his life. Were you abused by Jim Morrison? He made me feel as though he was repulsed by me. He always said the most horrible things to me and called me a whore and other names. I sometimes didn't think Jim knew who he was talking to but it hurt. I know this is silly, but I use to blame the Santa Ana winds.
When the Santa Ana winds would act up, I noticed Jim had some very dark moods. Did you always believe Jim would always come back to you because he always did?
Did you ever worry he wouldn't? In Paris, I realized he was going to leave me and that time, I didn't think he was coming back. Let's fast forward to Paris, it seems romantic from all the pictures of you and Jim there and since no one knew he was a famous singer there for the most part, they don't seem to be taken for press but it seems like you were in love and happy. Five days before his death, you two look like the perfect couple touring Chantilly.
What was really going on in Paris? I was feeling like we were down to our last chance. I admit, I wanted to see Jean again and he couldn't come back to L. Jean told me before, he wasn't coming back. I could not risk losing Jim. I couldn't go back to being nothing with no money or status. What's more I couldn't allow myself to be dumped and publicly humiliated. Jim and I may have looked happy but he was very moody, depressed and withdrawn most of the time in Paris, running to his next drink, I didn't hang out with him on those binges and I never knew where he was a lot of the time.
How did Jim Morrison actually die and did you take any part in it or your friend the french count? Yes I did it. Yes, Jean did take part as well, he helped me move him to the bathtub with a friend of his because I could not allow Jim to leave.